With time I pray that my fears and know I'm just going to have to give myself more time to heal and just let things happen in their own time. To bring you the best content on our sites and applications, Meredith partners with third party advertisers to serve digital ads, including personalized digital ads.I was thirty-nine years old when my husband died unexpectedly in his sleep. He was my love, my rock, a crucial part of my life and our children’s future, and in an instant, he was gone.A few weeks after his death, I received a letter from my insurance company.I grieved plenty as my wife cycled through cancers ups and downs and I grieved plenty as our marriage cycled up and down. EVENTUALLY A NEIGHBOR INTRODUCED ME TO A GOOD FREIND OF HERS. I now feel guilty that I feel happiness so soon after her death. It didn't take a divorce to be single so I have alot of love still in my heart and I know that God did not mean for us to walk the face of the earth alone. And finally I realized that I could be with a man and, furthermore, consider having a future with someone other than Mark.So, while my first attempt at a relationship after my husband did not end up as I had wanted, it was an experience that greatly furthered my healing and growth.
She was less volatile at the end and definitely was able to get most of her past issues resolved wit our sons.
In 1988 she earned a spot as a swimmer at the Olympic Trials. She lives in Texas with her sons Connor and Brannon.
For more information about Jennifer and her memoir, I lost my wife two months ago and am trying to sort through my feelings.
It seem's as if I live in one room & I cant seem to do anything but sit in this one room for over a yr. I Thought I was a strong woman, when my first husband had cancer we had been married 23 yr.s We had 3 beatiful daughter's But Curt my second husband Helped me raise my youngest but he was so funny & so postive about everything! With all the Bills, & Trying to do everything right! He totally understood and we decided to talk more over the phone and get to know each other better to make me feel more comfortable. WHEN MY HUSBAND PASSED AWAY WE HAD 2 LIL GIRLS AGES 4 AND 7 WE WENT TO GREIVING COUNSELING FOR A YEAR.
But Iam Just plain Lost & Waiting to screw something up! I know deep in my heart that I'm not ready for a serious relationship but need the company so terribly bad. BUT I FELT IT JUST MADE IT HARDER AND WORSER TO GET THREW.